Nihil Admirari's music is rarely covers, and they take pride in their original lyrical content which, more often than not, has more than one meaning. 

Anywhere

Without You

When the light

Has found a way

To leave the surface of the sun

I find myself

Another way

To see the way before the dawn

 

Even though I can be anywhere without you -

I choose here.

Where the shore meets the sea;

Where the pain sees the reverie;

Where my words are as pretty as can be.

 

Even though I can be anywhere without you -

I choose here.

Where we're full of joy;

Where the law chased the renegade;

Where my fears are no longer with me.

(How can I return the light)

Braving the dark

I've fought and I've lost

Rose from the ground

Lived how I want

Now to the future

I reach for the stars

 

(Still I can't know.)

 

Even though I can be anywhere without you -

I choose here.

Where the shore meets the sea;

Where the pain sees the reverie;

Where my words are as pretty as can be.

 

Even though I can be anywhere without you -

I choose here.

Where we're full of joy;

Where the law chased the renegade;

Where my fears are no longer with me.

 

When the light

Has found a way

To leave the surface of the sun

I find myself

Another way

To see the way before the dawn

 

In The Newness

of Now

In the Newness of Now

What challenges you've faced before

Are behind you

 

In the newness of now

What candlelight may bring

A feeling so jolly

 

And though life's gifts- they come and go

You've made your wishes for the New Year

In the newness now

You're on holiday

 

Laughin and singin

And dancin and playin;

Huggin and missin

And jokin and wishin

For all that I wanted

And all that I'm givin to

You

 

Eyes to the night sky

Yey unto the stars above

Vast be the cosmos

Still are we the ones who call

In the newness of now

Evergreen and white

Counting your blessings

Here I find myself at home

If you seek it

Joy may come to you

 

What kind of holiday is there this time to say

I've gone from-

Stressing and worrying

To marveling the lights and the care

 

What kind of holiday is there this time to say

I've learned so much-

And I'm starting anew

And I see the next chapter

 

Though life's gifts- they come and go

I've made my wishes for the New Year

In the newness now

I'm passing by

 

Laughin and singin

And dancin and playin;

Huggin and missin

And jokin and wishin

For all that I wanted

And all that I'm givin to

You

 

Eyes to the night sky

Yey unto the stars above

Vast be the cosmos

Still are we the ones who call

The newness of now

Evergreen and white

Counting your blessings

Here I find myself at home

If you seek it

Joy may come to you

If you seek it

Joy may come to you

 
 

Ocean

I stretch my arms up high into the atmosphere.

What trouble brings you here, sweet by and by?

I stretch my arms up high into the atmosphere.

What trouble brings you here, sweet by and by?

Everybody knows where you've been -

Where you're going.

They can see the light from afar -

They just know it.

Said a lot of things in confidence.

You're growing at a tempestuous pace.

I stretch my arms high as flowers -

Reaching for warmth and purpose.

Even now, I take to the sea.

Fierce as zephyr -

I try to find my shoreline.

Living ain' easy.

I hear lullabies.

I'm fading in midnight hideaways.

How I wish I'd heard it louder -

Pulled the veil from my eyes.

I set out on my own.

I'm dreaming - seeing monotone.

How beautiful.

I stretch my arms high as flowers -

Reaching for warmth and purpose.

Even now, I take to the sea.

Fierce as zephyr -

I try to find my shoreline.

Living ain' easy.

I call it out.

I'm reaching for clarity.

Cloud me no more and let my ship through.

Honestly I don't know where I'm going.

But I try.

I stretch my arms up high into the atmosphere.

What trouble brings you here, sweet by and by?

Reverie

If I were ever really gonna be,

I'd be the one who started.

From sometime ago,

I'd lost myself.

In a gradient of yellow-green,

Put back the other puzzle.

Or I'll lose again,

And I won't mind.

"I've died a hundred times it seems,"

Said the man who could have seen right through me.

Said, "I've lived this kind of life for me."

But it seems my world would end.

"I've got this river flowing through me."

"I've paid my way. So let it carry me."

Yeah

The other day, I sat and thought about the seasons.

How will I fair.

Will serendipity find my hand,

And tell me that it's worth it.

Rolling fades in calm reflection;

A soliloquy becomes one with the falls.

I wash up and steady myself in routine.

Cause I've tried a thousand times you know,

He sat there just listening to me.

I gotta just live this life for me.

And for this world I've got to know,

Why this river, flowing through me,

Paid its way and still relents to me.

Yeah.

Pitter patter pitter patter

One who motions forward, forward

Why set a course along Paraná

Through the south of my knowledge

Woe. Don't get carried away.

In my eyes, this is nothing short of freedom.

And I can't explain anymore

Cause all that is words that say no more

Who tells me what defines that freedom?

This river flowing through me

I can't pay with all that left inside me.

Yeah I'd hide away a million times from it all

Annihilating the pressure of the modern world

But it's not ingeniously letting go of this world.

No I'm preparing for it all.

Rivers flowing through me.

Each day, I find a part of me.

Yeah. Yeah.

 

Mangroves

Evening wastes away.

We are shorelines and barriers to sea.

Evening wastes away.

Compromises effecting what's there.

Evening slips away.

Wounds by and farewells -

Decaying our thoughts.

And the young ones go marching henceforth.

One can hardly understand who is and who isn't.

Light the flow. Mind the dream.

Stay your course.

Breaking down. Building up.

Either way return.

One can hardly understand all.

Evening always slips away.

And it's hard to think when the green -

Means our hearts -

Our burdens stain.

One can hardly understand who is and who isn't.

Light the flow. Mind the dream.

Stay your course.

Breaking down. Building up.

Either way return.

One can hardly understand all.

In the thicket,

She find her mourn.

Oh we are called by the twilight.

If one can believe in all.

I can hardly understand. I am who I've become.

Light the flow. Mind the dream.

Stay your course.

Breaking down. Building up.

Either way return.

One can hardly understand all.

 

GONE

 

You’re a piece of shit and I can’t believe it

In the time it takes to know you I’m already lost

It’s a stand against my infuriation - I know

Because I’m right when I’m wrong

And I’m wrong when I’m right

 

My prerogative to shout and scream

Might fall on deafened ears

Not a chance I’m in that abstract class

Barin’ insecurities

 

Last chance to take it back

I want it back

Last time to see this place

I wanna know my place

Last call to Las Vegas Boulevard

Lest I am gone

 

You’re a piece of shit and you’re foolin’ no one

One minute you’re here and the next you’re gone

You got a tendency to tell me lies - I know

Because I’m right when I’m wrong

And I’m wrong when I’m right

 

What propaganda can they throw at me

Might just fall on deafened ears

What you see ain’t a mirage of me

Barin’ insecurities

 

We’re illusive renegades.

And we bribe our lives until the everglades

Are a niche for whichever one remains - aloof

 

Cycling the retrograde

And the tattered ropes that broke -

From someone’s weight

Is a calling - a wanting for love

 

But you’re a piece of shit and I can’t believe it

 

Last chance to take it back

I want it back

Last time to see this place

I wanna know my place

Last call to Las Vegas Boulevard

Lest I am gone

 

Last chance to take it back

I want it back

Last time to see this place

I wanna know my place

Last call to Las Vegas Boulevard

Lest I am gone

 

SADIE

Sadie wants what she wants.

Sadie goes where she goes.

Sadie does what she needs.

And I don’t even care about her.

 

Sadie calls who she wants.

Sadie leaves. She just goes.

Sadie chose to forget.

And I don’t even care about her.

 

Sadie plays by her rules.

Sadie’s always so cool.

Sadie knows what I want.

But I don't even care about her.

 

Sadie meets with her friends.

Sadie’s got the moxy.

Sadie never forgets.

But I don't even care about her.

 

Once in awhile,

It's a spark of the eye; flick of the wrist.

Twice a look back,

It's a shot in the gut; stuck in a rut.

 

But I wasn't ready.

Sadie’s a sadist.

 

I love the way she makes me feel.

I can’t explain.

I love it when I’m shaking.

I think I like the pain.

 

I love it in her voice.

I somehow come alive.

I love the lonely nights.

I think I like the game.

 

You will state your sins and confess to the rebellion -

Against no one’s will,

Watching the suffering of the universe -

At the palms of your hands.

When your elements break laws -

Rip with judgemental flaws,

Sadie, you’re a sadist,

And you pleasure yourself with human suffering.

Pray.

 

Sadie's got it all down.

Sadie makes her own cash.

Sadie likes to get drunk.

But I don't even care about her.

 

Sadie likes to go out.

Sadie's figured it out.

Sadie struts like a fox.

But I don't even care about her.

Once in awhile,

It's a spark of the eye; flick of the wrist.

Twice a look back,

It's a shot in the gut; stuck in a rut.

Once in awhile,

It's a spark of the eye; flick of the wrist.

Twice a look back,

It's a shot in the gut; stuck in a rut.

 

But I wasn't ready.

Sadie’s a sadist.

 

I love the way she makes me feel.

I can’t explain.

I love it when I’m shaking.

I think I like the pain.

 

I love it in her voice.

I somehow come alive.

I love the lonely nights.

I think I like the game.

Sadie plays by her rules.

Sadie’s always so cool.

Sadie knows what I want.

But I don't even care about her.

 

Sadie meets with her friends.

Sadie’s got the moxy.

Sadie never forgets.

But I don't even care about her.

 

Once in awhile,

It's a spark of the eye; flick of the wrist.

Twice a look back,

It's a shot in the gut; stuck in a rut.

Once in awhile,

It's a spark of the eye; flick of the wrist.

Twice a look back,

It's a...

 

MR. WIZARD

I bring the sweets

And then you bring the wine

I bring the meat

And then you bring the heat

I bring the peaches

And you got the cream

I bring the story

And you tell everyone

 

I bring the laughter

And you start to laugh

I bring attention

And you pull me close

I bring attention

And you don't let go

I bring attention

And you don't let go

Lookin at you

Lookin at me

Lookin at us

Lookin at them

Half past 10 at Night

Ah ah ah, Ah ah ah

Pour another drink

Ah ah ah, Ah ah

I gotta say my hellos

Ah ah ah, Ah ah

I make my way through the crowd

Ah ah ah, Ah

Mr. Wizard cast your spell for me.

Make me a better plan.

Ah ah ah.

I bring the vodka

And you bring the schnapps

I bring the Baileys

And Sambuca go

I'm only free for the night

Said I'm only free for tonight

I'm a burning phoenix born again

I bring the setting

And you bring the mood

I bring the feeling

And you bring it neat

I'm only free if you play

Said I'm only free when you play

I'm a high level player in this game

If this is a high then -

Why can I still feel everything?

Is this my high?

Quarter past one in the morn

Ah ah ah, Ah ah ah

Pour some hard liquor

Ah ah ah, Ah ah

I gotta say what's on my mind

Ah ah ah, Ah ah

I dance onto the stage

ah ah ah, Ah

Mr. Wizard cast that spell for me.

Make it a better plan.

Ah ah ah.

If this is a high then -

Why can I still feel everything?

Is this my high?

I'm on the floor.

Lookin at you

Lookin at me

Lookin at us

Lookin at them

Take me out again

Mister Wizard cast your spell for me

Make me a better plan

Ah ah ah.

 

FOLLOW ME

 

Heaven followed me.

She must have followed me.

I'm on this road of regret and remorse but

I've got her company.

 

Heaven followed me

He must have followed me.

When the time has come and gone

He leaves a prayer for me.

 

I've been taught how to love hate

Excepting dictating not answering

All the questions I had

Miseducated me

 

Slept with knives, I

I slept with knives under my head

Hoping soundly I would leave

Someday

But who are you standing behind me

Tell me again how the tides of the magnet moon

Pull at my strength

And follow me

 

Heaven follow me

You've gotta follow me

Jaded cynical listless and heartless

Nothing but fear I breathe

 

Slept with knives, I

I slept with knives under my head

Hoping soundly I would leave

Someday

But who are you standing behind me

Tell me again how the tides of the magnet moon

Pull at my strength

And follow me

Pretty little words set free.

 

Slept with knives, I

I slept with knives under my head

Hoping soundly I would leave

Someday

But who are you standing behind me

Tell me again how the tides of the magnet moon

Pull at my strength

And follow me

 

NOT ENOUGH

 

I wanna be who I thought I loved

Just a minute ago

But life has a way

Of only taking all that I'd been dreamin of

Because I

Fight what's right

I fight for the wrong in things

I lie to myself

I lie for the simple things

I do what I want

I only look straight ahead

And don't see what's happening

 

Is this all there is?

Give me somethin' more

Living is less than bliss

Oh~!

Sometimes all the people you believe in

They use what they want

He takes all my everything

Then all that time I spent

I’ve just wasted

So where do I go

Just what am I thinking when

Too much ain’t enough

 

I wanna be who I thought I knew

Just a minute ago

But somehow anyway,

I’m looking at a wall of doubt of who I was

Because they

Told me so

They told me that I’m worthless

And they control you

They control all the media

They do what they want

They only look straight ahead

And don’t care about us

 

Is this all there is?

Give me somethin' more

Living is less than bliss

Oh~!

Sometimes all the people you believe in

They use what they want

He takes all my everything

Then all that time I spent

I’ve just wasted

So where do I go

Just what am I thinking when

Too much ain’t enough

 

Reach out to the atmosphere

And take what you see

Speak of the ether in which life trancedes

Hold onto the oneness and endure drudgery

One day you’ll be jeweled

And all that’s clear will come to be

 

Is this all there is?

There must be something more

Living is less than bliss

Oh~

Not so quietly

I shake away the madness

Take it all from me

Oh~

Sometimes all the people you believed in

They use what they want

Desert and forget me

‘Cause what you do

Is everything you’re made of

And too much ain’t enough

 

FIGHT THE PAIN

FIGHT THE HATE

FIGHT THE DARKNESS THAT WE LIVE IN

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